i've always wanted to say this but don't know why,the opportunity just didn't come.
I AM SORRY.
to anyone whom i've hurt with my words,actions etc.
after reading his blog,syarifuddin's,i realised that well maybe i was harsh with my previous post.
i wrote it without thinking of what people would say, whether i'll hurt someone's else feelings or even worse,stir up hatred towards myself.
all i thought of at that moment was the stereotyped thinking,
MY BLOG,MY SAY.
rubbish,now that i realise it.
well,here goes nothing.
to my classmates,especially the group whom i've judge wrongly,i guess it's not too late to apologize right?hmmm... really hope you guys will put the matter behind .
reasons?
because i love each and every one of my classmates,even through the bitter times we had.
and i really hope that all of us can and will graduate with a big grin on our face for each other instead of bearing grudges .
THAT,will be my sweet dreams.
Khairi my dear monitor,i am holy sorry if my behaviour had made you say,
"the one i shall never understand"
i don't know where my wrong is,but i just know i am sorry.
if you had realised,i've always tried to make a friendly conversation with you but somehow,i kept getting the cold shoulders.arrogant as i am,i do feel hurt at times.because i look upon you as a friend.it's okay though,coz i know somewhere in the middle,or maybe from the very start?,i might have done something wrong without realising it.i sorry,okay domo?:)
and matt,yeah to you too,sorry a truckloads of chocolates.
call me ignorant,i'd accept that gladly if in the end you're gonna say,
"yeah,i forgive you classmate."
that will surely brighten my day up.
and to the rest of my beloved classmates, if i've done anything wrong to you,with my actions or words,do forgive me will ya?
i really wanna us graduate with a feeling of contentment that we were once a classmate,but we will forever be friends.
and again:
i am sorry
i am sorry
i am sorry
i am sorry
I AM SORRY E9's! ily you guys a lot:)

-SHAHUL HAMEED -
beb,thanks a whole lot that you're willing to forgive my most stupidest and humongous mistake that i've made during the early days of our relationship.thank you so much dear.the problem is really personal,and only few knows about it.let it be between me and you.i seriously am lost for words when you said you want to put the past behind wnd will try to forget the incident even though i know that deep inside your heart,not a single person can cure the wound that i've created.at times i know those tears welling up inside your eyes potrays the hurt that you really felt deep inside but you chose to hold it back so that you won't get to catch a tear of mine falling on your palms.i really salute you for that.Months and months it took me to love my own boyfriend,stupid i really am.i love you honey,i really do now.and i know we can do this,you and me,right?ohh,sorry for not updating my personal blog or our blog.busy o lvels lahh syg.we still meet everyday rightt?haha:DD

FAMILY
i do not want to believe that 2012,the world is coming to an end.seriously.
THE 10 reasons and maybe a million more....
1.there's many stuff that i wanna do before i leave this world
2.i only get to know my biological mother about two years ago,and i wish i can always be with her.
3.papa,i miss you.
4.my 5 siblings,your older sisterloves you alot,you know?each and everyone of you.
5.I have 3 pairs of parents and if disasters happened,how am i suppose to gather all up at once?
6.i've yet to talk with my stepfather.
7.mummy is just a name i call her.
8.i've yet to apologize for all my mistakes i've done to my adopted parents.
9.nenek got cancer,and i love her so much.
10.MY FAMILY is everything to me.

hey pa,and i thought you will never forget me?i love you.and i really wish we could get backto the moment where we would sneak out from our family,meet up,catch a movie and share our problem anh heartfelt stories of your past and how i got into this beautiful world.i especially miss the moment when you hugged me and say,
"girl,papa will always love you and never forget you.i might have 4 other kids at home,but you will forever be my babygirl coz you are my past and mistakes,and i'll never abandon this chance of reuniting with my beloved daughter." and the you will kiss me on your forehead,and in return i give you waterfall.hahaha.
papa,you dont know how much you really mean to me.your hug and kisses can never be compared to anyone els's in this world.for 14 years of my life i waited for your presence and when you came,that was just the happiest day of my life.

LOVE YOU.
sobsob.
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