Thursday, December 24, 2009

Maybe its me, the abhorent selfish bitch i've always been.

Staring dreamily into the dark midnight-blue sky above, it just came to pieces without needing a penny of my thoughts.
She came into your life way back before you said your first hello to me since our half-year love.
You were there for each other.
You were her source of light, her branch for support, her bucket for tears.
You loves, and without doubt jesus, she loves you as much as those tears that she shed.
But on the 18th june 09, a selfish bitch came along and snatch those happiness from her and you.
That's me.
I was too fucking selfish to spare a thought for the poor girl's feelings.
I want you and only you to myself.
I read this book, Adored .
Summarised, a fucking bitch of a woman for her age , Siena wants her uncle Hunter all for herself without having to share it with his sweet of a sweetheart, Tiffany. And Tiffany, realising what a bitch Siena was, tried to keep her relationship from hitting the rocks. She managed to do so. But what she doesnt realised was that she'd tore deep into Siena's soul, tearing her away from the very thing she loved the most in the world.
That Tiffany is me, and that Siena is her. Fuck you, this isnt melodramatic.
So,i'm Terribly sorry that i had fucked up the relationship between the both of you.
I cant change, but i can try.
Even if it hurts, i've done far worser.
I am sorry.
Atikah. Shahul. Atika.
There was never an Atika till i came.
Im the 3rd party.

1 comment:

  1. Atikah : Pls don't say that . You weren't the third party , and it's not your fault . I'm sorry tht i cause u to feel tht way . He WAS my everything . But not anymore . Atika , he loves u . Really he do . It's just tht he loves the both of us differently . No doubt i felt hurt about it in the past but tht was when i realise , who am i to larang ur relationship . I've got over it . You should to . Let's start the year with happy thoughts . Forget about the unhappy past and start a new . Wil you ? Oh ya and for the record , i just want us to the close :)

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